i was prepared as i had seen her twice before. but it seems to get worse every time. on sunday she was totally useless on stage. she realized it herself and wanted to sign us cheques if we'd all leave. we stayed and after a while she told us that now it was too late she couldn't reimburse us anymore as we hadn't left. really pathetic the whole thing. i have the feeling she is going to join janis joplin, jimi hendrix, jim morrison, ian curtis and kurt cobain not too far in the future if she goes on like that.

from your holiday, sean? how was new york?

probably the worst moment of the show was when chan forced all her musicians to drink out of her whisky (?) bottle on stage. i saw that the violinist (a woman) didn't want to drink but she had no chance. chan insisted. shortly afterwards the band left. chan was really appalling that night. someone should have smacked her into the face to wake her up. i saw her eyes before the concert in a bar. she was already gone then. there was no one at home.