Both my parents are still alive, though my father - I'm still waiting for the day he kills himself. Which sounds brutal, awful. But it is what I expect, what I learned to expect, early on, from his many threats, his moods, his terrible emotional violence. My parents divorced when I was five. I know full well the grief that an early marriage turned desolate and hopeless will wreak - I have known it almost all my life. 22 years later it can still reduce me to a kind of howling, whimpering pain.

Emmy Hennings' small essay on Ian Curtis, his band Joy Division and Anton Corbijn's film Control